I had a little aha this week that I can’t stop thinking about.
I was in a room with people I love, talking about life—work, family, retirement, the future. And somewhere in the conversation, I felt a subtle but noticeable disconnect.
Not a disconnect from the people. If I had to name it, I’d say it was more a disconnect from myself. A signal from my body. A little trigger.
And then my mind immediately got involved.
The feeling came first.
The story about what the feeling meant came second.
I started quietly doubting my life. My decisions. WTAF am I doing? It wasn’t loud, but it was there.
I don’t have the five-year plan. I’m building a life and work that don’t fit neatly into a box. I don’t know what’s next. Half the time (okay, more than half the time) I’m following my heart, a nudge, a knowing, and what feels aligned without knowing exactly where it’s taking me.
Suddenly I was questioning all of it. It felt uncomfortable. I named it doubt.
But the truth? I feel so alive in this messy, unwritten space. I have no reason to doubt it.
What if it’s not doubt?
Then a friend offered me a question: What if that feeling, that trigger you called doubt wasn’t actually about doubt?
Huh.
So I followed it.
What if the disconnect was simply… disconnect?
Not proof that I was doing something wrong.
Just information.
Simply noticing how my body felt in that room—the contraction, the disconnect, a restlessness.
Then I thought about rooms and conversations where I feel deeply connected. The ones where I feel expansive, lit up, alive, full of possibility, aligned.
Completely different energies.
I realized that perhaps the trigger wasn’t meant for me to question my journey or to redirect me to a different path.
Maybe I didn’t need to make it mean anything. Maybe I could simply notice the contrast. The contraction. The expansion. The disconnect. The connection.
And trust what I already know.
What momentarily felt like doubt now felt like clarity. A reminder that the life I’m creating feels true to me.
Notice. Listen. Trust.
It’s wild how our bodies know.
The practice is noticing.
Learning to listen to your body, your heart, your intuition.
Weeding through the noise, the shoulds, the comparisons.
And most of all, trusting yourself.
If guilt has been part of your own good-girl conditioning, you might also like The Permission I Gave Myself, where I share how releasing guilt changed the way I live.