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I had a little aha this week that I can’t stop thinking about.I was in a room with people I love, talking about life—work, family, retirement, the future. And somewhere in the conversation, I felt a subtle but noticeable disconnect.Not a disconnect from the people. If I had to name it, I’d say it was more a disconnect from myself. A signal from my body. A little trigger.And then my mind immediately got involved.The feeling came first.The story about what the feeling meant came second.I started quietly doubting my life. My decisions. WTAF am I doing? It wasnâ[...]

I’m not sure why this is coming through right now.  I’m not feeling especially good. Or bad. Nothing triggered it. There's no one story to illustrate it. There are many. And I have a feeling you probably have plenty of your own. So I’ll just share what came through…  The motherfucking good girl.An identity I was handed that never felt like me. I spent my entire life trying to be good, oftentimes unconsciously. I felt ashamed when I failed. Even if I didn’t label it as shame. I see it now. I felt guilty for wanting something different. Good never felt[...]

I’m not sure why this is coming through right now.  I’m not feeling especially good. Or bad. Nothing triggered it. There's no one story to illustrate it. There are many. And I have a feeling you probably have plenty of your own. So I’ll just share what came through…  The motherfucking good girl.An identity I was handed that never felt like me. I spent my entire life trying to be good, oftentimes unconsciously. I felt ashamed when I failed. Even if I didn’t label it as shame. I see it now. I felt guilty for wanting something different. Good never felt[...]

Don’t Make Yourself Small. On expansion, releasing what we've outgrown, and trusting where life is leading us. This was the message I received this week: Don't make yourself small. Expand into where life is leading you. I love everything about it. And the timing couldn’t be more perfect. I felt drawn to my Rumi oracle deck. I hadn’t pulled a card in over a month, but something called me to it. And I followed. An invitation to quiet, to stillness, to go within. I held the deck and asked to be shown — from my heart — the guidance I need right now. What’s[...]

I almost missed years of this view because I was convinced it had to look a very specific way. Here's what happened... When Life Pulls You Somewhere That Makes No Sense I was in the midst of my divorce and decided I was moving to New York City. I'd always loved the city, but living there had never crossed my mind. My ex-husband never would have considered it. It wasn't his thing. I felt a strong pull to radically change my environment. I didn't want to run into people from that life. And honestly, I never really wanted to live in that town to begin with. NYC—spe[...]

What is Mysguided™? The word dropped in loudly, and has been quietly circling me for years – Mysguided™. It felt big. Huge. But what was it meant to be? What did I want it to be? What is the goal, the strategy, the visual identity? Was it a brand? A website? A product? An offer? How was I meant to express this beautiful word that came through me so strongly and wouldn’t leave me alone? So it lived in my head – and on paper. For years. Journal entries, notes to myself, little moments scribbled down whenever something felt Mysguided. And then this week, a[...]

Three simple reminders that keep bringing me back to myself when life feels uncertain. As I navigate this chapter of life — with so many unknowns and all the change that comes with midlife — there are three things I keep coming back to.  Things that help me return to myself. Things that make me feel alive. Reminders of who I am. Ways of staying in the frequency of who I want to be, who I’m becoming.  This chapter can be confusing, lonely, amazing, beautiful, eye-opening, frustrating, magical, empowering, uncertain. Sometimes all in the same hour.  More[...]